Upon experiencing many things for the past three years in college, I began to question myself on where do I really stand. What is my interest? What is my calling? All of us are searching for that one thing that would keep us motivated throughout our lives. That particular something that would ignite passion towards living and makes us feel genuinely secure. For some, they are lucky for they already know what they want in life from the very start and has a vivid vision of what they want to become in the future. As for me, I am one of the unlucky ones. The ones who keep searching for that certain field that would be considered as a lifetime interest. That particular someone who tries everything to know what are the thing he’s good at and hoping that someday he will find it. But sadly, I’m still in the searching phase of that long-lost calling. Yes, life could be really unfair.
Let’s run down a couple of possibilities I want to happen in my life after I graduate.
A lawyer.
I am planning to take up Bachelor of Laws in either San Beda or Ateneo, two of the best law schools in the Philippines. I am always fascinated with the promising cliche’ of the lawyers. They are said to be the ones who defend the opressed ones. But that does not convince me. One of the reasons why I want to take up Law is because being a lawyer is a job that everybody looks up to. When you’re a lawyer, everybody looks at you so grandly and some may have the notion that you’re practically one of the most intellectual persons so to speak. That is partly true. But what bothers me is that, pratically wise, there are already a lot of lawyers out there and the chances of being a successful and “employed” lawyer gets slimmer as time goes by. Which leads me to option number 2.
A Professor
One of my plans after I graduate with my degree in Economics is to continue furthering my knowledge in it. I am eyeing out to have my Masters in Political Economy at University of Asia and the Pacific. As you may have noticed, I am not contented with an undergraduate degree per se. I want to optimize myself by actually upgrading my educational attainment. One of the professions also that I see myself enjoying is being a college professor. Personally, I have the highest regards to those professors who hone students to become not just a better student, but a better person. I want to be one of them if given a chance. But still, I can’t seem to commit myself into settling my mindset to be a professor someday. That leaves me to my final option.
A Politician.
Leading people is something that runs in the family. Having my whole clan as a bunch of political leaders, I have yet the biggest opportunity to try myself in the political arena. My mom actually sees me as one of the leaders that would run our town, just like her. I don’t have anything against politicians but what I do not want to experience for the rest of my life is the politics in itself. I have this certain idea that politics here in our country is dirty and dark which cannot be easily supressed. That saddens me. I would want to be a politician to serve those people who believe in me but I think the politics in itself is the real thing that scares me. Maybe if politics would be a little less war-like, I could settle to love this opportunity. But as of now, I can’t commit yet.
It is a struggle for me to find that particular something that would be my calling. But still, I’m not giving up. It may be a bumpy ride to search for it, but nonetheless, I’ll not stop seeking for it. Because I know, somewhere out there, I’ll find the missing piece. We’ll just have to keep searching without stopping.
Signed,
Unpassed Manuscript 